5th Pregnancy after weight loss

Last night I showed Mario that picture on the left which was taken 2 years and 4 months ago. He was so surprised. He said, “damn babe!” I asked him, “do I look like this right now? Be honest” and I wasn’t just asking this for attention. After my appointment yesterday I felt like who I was seeing in the mirror may be different from who everyone else is seeing, especially with how much my body has hurt lately I could feel the heaviness of my body.

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Let me rewind a bit. Yesterday was my 24 week appointment and I stepped on their scale to my surprise to show that I am up to 240. I started this pregnancy at 208. (I topped out at 262 right after Elaina) It’s only 5 pounds up from a month ago so it wasn’t seeing that I was up 5 pounds that bothered me (I steadily always gain throughout my pregnancies) however just seeing that number 240 in my mind took me back to feelings I had the last time I weighed that before my weight loss. It had me wondering if I looked like the person in that photo on the left. Especially with dealing with the severe hip and back pain, and I can physically feel the swelling above my butt so it’s no lie I can physically feel this weight.

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Mario said, “no babe you definitely don’t look like that right now” I guess I just needed the reassurance that trying my best to have the healthiest pregnancy possible is making a difference. With Elaina I binge ate sweets CONSTANTLY. I mean after breakfast, lunch, dinner and in between as snacks while eating fast food. My eating habits have changed this time around. This is pregnancy number 5 and the last. And I know I typically hold onto a ton of water fluid and I tend to gain it in my bottom half first 😬😬 I also need to remind myself everyone’s body is different. I’ve never been one to only gain 20 pounds, I’m a 5’8 girl lol I know I’m doing what I can to be the healthiest I can be for my little man, and that’s what matters.

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Anyways, I’m just proud of me despite having pain, despite being exausted, and dealing with unexpected health issues this go around that I’ve never had in my unhealthy pregnancies, I still have my questionable moments of wonder but my fiancé is such a great partner to give me that reassurance ❤️