Pre-gender reveal nerves

So, based off of my mother's pregnancies with me and my brother + how I'm experiencing my symptoms.. I've made my own judgement on whether I think I'm having a boy or girl. And I know it's too early for me to know, but I feel like I've connected more with my pregnancy after I started to feel like I knew. Is that bad? I know either way I'll be happy once the baby arrives, but I'm worried I'll be slightly disappointed if I find out I'm not having what I think I'm having. And I feel guilty even thinking that way.