How To Reach Out To My Dad?

Just going to try and keep things short here. I was a TOTAL daddy’s girl...he was my #1 supporter throughout my whole life and fostered my interests. The great parts of who I am today I can thank him for, honestly.

When I was 16, we had a falling out that looking back was very trivial and could’ve been mended. However, the thing that has totally shattered me over the 3 1/2 years is that he has not once reached out to me to get me back.

And it really fucking hurt.

After that, I went on anti depressants and have had a pretty bad run. It’s probably going to be the biggest heartbreak in my life.

My older siblings talk to him at arms length. Everyone basically says he’ll never be the first to reach out, and that makes me upset too...but I feel like now is the time I should reach out for MY sake.

It hurts he’s missed out on so much. He hasn’t met my boyfriend of 3 and a half years. He missed my high school graduation. Me becoming an adult. Getting jobs. Losing jobs. Going into uni.

It’s affected me quite deeply, even though I’m in a relationship I feel like NO ONE can love me absolutely unconditionally - I mean, not even my parent can.

I guess I’m just asking for some advice...I have his number. What do I say? Should I even go through with it?

My expectations would be low. I’m not asking for things to go back to normal, but some peace of mind would also be nice.