Risking it all

we have been together 10 years and have 2 kids. My spouse has always made it so I didn’t have to work. He works long tireless hours to provide for us at 2 different jobs. He rarely sleeps too because of this. So he has had money issues in the past, unnecessary spending and now has about $12k debt. He has done this before a few times 3 years ago about, 1 year ago and now in the last 3 months.

Well here I am checking through our email about 2 months ago and I go to check the Apple Receipts so we aren’t getting charged extra or for things we don’t use. Well I come upon 3 different receipts all $500 each worth of stuff on a game he plays. Well this isn’t the first time either he has done this on multiple occasions. So naturally I get angry and tell him that’s unacceptable. He has a house, car, insurance etc to pay. All the while he is borrowing money from his parents creating more debt. (Both his parents are retired, sucking up their retirement fund). 🙄 he says I’m emotionally abusing him by telling him that he can’t spend any money since I found out again today he spent another $150 on this game again today right after he cashed his check. (He also pointed out that he makes the money and can spend it how he likes) well our 8 year old is starting to notice that things are tense between us and I don’t want my kids to hurt because he cannot get it together for his family.

I’m at the point where idk what to do anymore. I love him with all of my soul but he is being so selfish. When we barely have money for food right now, I would leave but I am not in touch with my family and literally have no where to go and starting over would be devastating. Someone give me a glimpse of hope or just pray for me.

Editing 9/4

For those of you who said I need a job, I have one I just make nothing compared to my spouse. I am a stay at home mom for the most part though. He makes around 4,500 a month so we could live comfortably and I make like $500 a month if that. Yes our agreement was I stay home with our children as they are homeschooled and we have never trusted daycares with them.

As for the comment about him working two jobs he did that too himself because he can’t keep up with his spending. Our accounts are separate so I pay into his and his to mine. Mine is drained at the moment due to his negligence in over spending. And for those of you asking what game Marvel Contest of Champions it’s in the App Store.

As for all the negative Nancy’s please don’t my mental health is on edge as is already just get off my post 👍🏼