Mentally/Emotionally effect of Negative pregnancy test

I been feeling so mentally and emotionally drained from seeing multiple negative pregnancy test. I did not know it would bother me this bad when I was trying to get pregnant. My last pregnancy with my first born, I had a gut feeling that I was pregnant. I was so in tune with my body that I knew I was pregnant even when my test was saying I was not back in 2017. This time around I have experience symptoms such as I have not seen my period for ten days. I vomit and experience wanting to vomit here and there. I have had cramps, back pain, headaches. But even with all of this, the test keeping stating I am not pregnant. Unlike before, this time I do not experience any gut feeling. The waiting is killing me and I don’t know what to do 😢😩