For others who say you can control how you feel, mental health isn’t real, get over it and be happy, anything along those lines, just imagine yourself wanting to hide away from the people you love most just to keep everyone around you happy, because your letting those words feel up your head and now you feel wrong as a human for having emotions..! (Never give up);

“LIVING WITH DEPRESSION”

Depression creeps upon you quietly. At the very beginning you struggle with the little things but you usually choose to ignore them, it’s like a headache you tell yourself “it’s temporary and it’ll pass, it’s just another bad day” but it’s not. Your stuck in this state of mind you get used to putting on this social mask, you continue to live amongst other people because that’s what you have to do. That’s what your supposed to do. However the problem does not go away , you struggle to put on a play every day and it starts to cost you more and more, that’s why you fall even deeper and that’s when you slowly start to back away emotionally from your relationship, friends , and family shutting them out, all satisfaction is gone. All the little things that used to bring you joy are now worthless even the simplest fast becomes painful and that’s why you lack motivation now. Why keep on trying if you don’t feel the happiness anyways? All of this makes you feel even worse and you get caught up in a vicious circle , suddenly you find yourself moving in slow motion days become indistinguishable white noises, heaviness just feeling your mind. You feel as though you won’t be happy for along time you continue to back away and destroy relationships, your ashamed of everything you’ve done, and everything you haven’t . You get a part of you that wants to make things right, a sudden positive upsurge makes you want to go out and be happy but it’s all short lived because you think it’ll never work anyways. Things that make people that surround you excited mean nothing to you and you realize it makes you seem indifferent, you become aware of the huge gap and lack of communication between your others so that’s when you choose to be alone in your comfort zone where no ask any questions. Low self esteem and lack of purpose become unbearable and you finally realize you can’t go on that way, no support from a significant other, or just the emotions of feeling tired and emotionally done. Things can either get worse or better from the realization, never hide your emotions for others satisfaction.

Napiorkowska

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