Idk If this goes here but....

I'm so depressed. I lost my mother on father's day this year. Christmas is her favorite holiday. I had a dream of everyone putting up the tree as a family and I ended up doing it myself. I just want to cry. I miss her so bad. I thought this would make my family close but my sister just laughed at me. I'm trying to do this for my mother and make her proud a well as my 1 year old. Sigh. I'm going to go cry now