Am I too young to feel so old?

I would like to vent about the difficulty that I am having ...accepting my age.

I am a 29 year old woman, with no husband and no children. I have been in the same dead-end relationship for years. He already has been married before and has two kids. He doesn't want anymore kids and never wants to marry again. I know this, I accept this, and it seems to work. Although, I know we are mostly together because nobody else will put up with either of us. In other relationships of ours, we always run back to one another leaving the others in the dust.

Moving on. I hate the way I am looking. I work out, I have a nice body. I have nice, long, brunette hair. 34 DDs, trim stomach. Sounds great right?

On paper, it sounds great. But why can't I see my beauty anymore?

I pass by gorgeous 18-25 year olds and my body burns with envy. My insecurity takes over. I feel like I am not ready for my 30s. I am not taking it well.

I am considering botox and even lip fillers. Anything to keep up with todays beauty " standards".

I know this sounds egotistical, but guys it is effecting my everyday life.

Is anyone feeling like me? Anyone?