Treating my ADHD during pregnancy

Please no judgement....

I am currently 10 weeks pregnant with my 3rd baby. I was diagnosed with ADHD 5 years ago and to say my medication has saved my life is an understatement. I was able to finally concentrate enough to do normal everyday things. When I was pregnant with my first two, I stopped taking the medication. Mainly because I worked at a daycare that didn’t require much brain work and I was super scare to mess my baby up. Well now I graduated college with two kids and now work in a medical office building. Last week I attempted to stop my medication and drastically noticed a decline in my performance not to mention to increase in anxiety it caused me I started crying at work. I then today took a half of my medication and it was helping me again. I can’t imagine managing my ADHD without it on top of managing a household and two kids. Has anyone had any experience with this? We’re your babies fine while taking it? I feel like such a shitty person/mother.