How do you cope with the disappointment?

I’ve been TTC for a long time. I’m 34. My husband is 41. I’ve been to the doc. My husband has been to the doc. Everything seems to work “as normal” - yet here I am with another negative pregnancy test.

How do you deal with the sadness time after time? I almost had a breakdown walking past a mother with her small children today because I’m just not sure I’ll ever get to experience that. It’s so hard.

I feel like this getting pregnant is this elusive puzzle that is a dead end at every turning point.

To say I’m struggling is an understatement.

What mindsets / coping skills do you use to keep going, trying, searching?