I have been with my partner for almost 4 years now. And this year, with COVID it has been difficult. I lost my job and became depressed. And with that, I then had to start school which I was very excited about. I am in my second semester of college. This new real remote time for class is different for me. I have been struggling with trying to keep up with my class content since everything is online and I do better in person. But I’ve been getting through it and it’s been stressful. My time has been getting shorter. I’m busy all the time since at home I have my classes and then right now I am taking care of 7 week old puppies and I’ve been helping my sister in-law watching her children during their school zoom classes while she goes to the store or goes to her weekly doctor appointments since she’s 34 weeks pregnant and can have a baby any time soon. I’ve been so busy that my boyfriend is really upset that I won’t text him, won’t call him, won’t hang out with him, won’t sleep with him, won’t go to his place, won’t pay him attention. I’ve been super busy and I honestly feel so pressured on and stressed. I have been so stressed after losing my job and it’s been 6 months of depression and stress that I have started seeing changes on my body. My period has been late, I’ve gained weight, I have been developing intense acne on my forehead and jawline, I’ve been eating less. My boyfriend just keeps pressuring me and getting upset at me. It’s all so overwhelming. He suggested to break up because it would be better “for me” since I’m always busy. I feel heart broken. But I decided to take it. To agree on breaking up as I need time to get my life in order and feel better. It’s all I can do if he wanted to break up.

I’m just wondering if I did the right choice? Should I have let him go so easily? Or should I have begged?

I feel like this is good. That I should get better before getting in a relationship again. Focus on myself. Get fit. Worry about school. Get things in order. Get a job. Be happy.