Weight gain

I gained weight before ttc, I went from a cute fit build to a thicker 20 lbs heavier one in a year and a half. I'm feeling super insects and my so wants to take these pictures of my stomach every week but being we're so early on I just think that they look horrible. Is anyone else feeling this way? I started walking a few miles every other day and have changed my diet since finding out I was pregnant. I'm just disappointed in myself for not getting in shape before pregnancy! Ttc ended up being such a struggle that I was depressed a lot and ended up heavier. 😔