We being trying for 5 years to get pregnant, we got lucky four times but we lost our babies during my second trimester due to incompetence cervix. I had cerclage placed at 12 weeks on my last one but it broke and lost him at 20weeks. I got an abdominal cerclage in December of 2019. I can’t get pregnant since then, starting infertility phone appointment due to COVID and I am 39 and I am think I should stop trying because it hurts too much. I am doing my best to move forward and make peace that there is a possibility that I am only would an angel mom. Today is one of those days that my soul feels broken.