Feeling hopeless

Im so emotionally drained and exhausted! We have been ttc over 7 years now, multiple miscarriages but kept trying, kept pushing on, with the help of clomid, May of this year i was confirmed pregnant 5 weeks along, we had hope because my last pregnancies never held past a few weeks😭 i was 6 1/2 weeks pregnant this time when i miscarried, i dnt think i really took the time to grieve the loss🥺 as hard as it was, my husband and my other kids needed me to b strong, so i sucked it up pushed forward, followed up with my dr, had the proper exams was given the ok to try again, started back on the clomid and have been trying again..im going into the 3rd month now of the clomid not sticking 😭😭 this month we even went above and beyond fertility and ovulation dates, thought this time for sure we got this, today i started my menstrual cycle, n i just cant seem to hold it together, im an emotional wreck! Its so frustrating over n over again going through this! Idk y im posting i guess support and maybe some advice? Fighting so hard to keep moving forward, to keep trying but i feel like such a failure, i feel like y did GOD GIVE ME SOMETHING JUST TO TAKE IT AWAY AGAIN! Feeling so frustrated and hurt, asking myself over n over again Y!?!! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!?!? Battling in my mind i just wanna give up but i want this so bad! The stress has really taken hold and idk wat to do anymore! Im almost 40, my clock is ticking and i feel like this is not ever going to happen! I know im not alone in this, but i feel alone... empty, more empty since i lost my baby end of june idk how to get passed all this and keep pushing to try for the same results 😭😭😭 i know for most 3 months dnt seem like long, but we have been trying over 7 years..any advice wld really b appreciated 💞

Thanks all for letting me vent 💞