My lovebug was born on 10/27 @ 438pm. My mother went into the hospital on 10/28 for a collapsed lung. I had to take my daughter to see her there to make sure she saw her & hoped it would keep her motivated. We found out she needed a double lung transplant and some forms of TB. After several setbacks due to having pneumonia in both her lungs and sarcoidosis her heart stopped on 11/14. After 20 minutes she was revived. She was on a venilator but was able to squeeze my hand and shake her head yes and no. So things were better. She died at 842 on 11/15. I'm trying to cope with being a FTM after 2 years and 9 months of fertility and carrying her plus deal with losing my mom. We prayed a lot of days for my baby and she kept me encouraged. She was looking forward to spoiling her me grand baby and keeping her when I went back to work. She had started stocking up stuff at her house. I'm trying to find the strength to keep it together but I'm failing. The only thing keeping me sane is my daughter. My husband tries to keep me in good spirits but it doesn't last. Please just pray for me. That's all I ask. Thanks