So I'm not sure what to do

I really want to have a baby and have been trying for a few months then I stop and then try again but is it normal to go back and forth like I want a baby and I have a decent job and so does my boyfriend we could support one.. We also have are own house..  But I just have a fear my parents will be pissed my boyfriends parents will hate me  like I just have second thoughts and then I don't is it normal to think things like this or should I wait and just be sure or just keep trying and ride it out with whatever happens and not care?