Tired of Trying

The endless cycle always thinking this symptom means something I feel different this time could I be pregnant  for real? And then it happens the cramps and then AF.... I'm so depressed every month that passes I ask God why? You see all these parents who give up their kids don't treat them right or just have no plans and means to support them... And here I am married with stability I have waited so many years for this dream to come true God took my sister and best friend from me this past year can't he send a little happiness my way it's so unfair...I'm so disappointed but this morning I came to the conclusion that I'm done trying I can't keep driving myself crazy every month it depresses me... I am starting to convince myself it's just not meant to be😔! Lots of Love and Baby Dust to the rest of you out there still trying 🍼 you will be on my heart and in my prayers