Starting to get depressed

All I’ve ever wanted was to love and be loved. All my relationships have gone to shit. They’ve basically all cheated on me and embarrassed me. And still, all I want is love. I want a HEALTHY relationship so badly. I want someone to look at me and think “wow, that’s my girl!”. Someone to be proud of me. Someone to support me. Someone to be by my side through it all. Someone that I can get to know just as much as I know myself. And I know people are ganna start with the “you don’t *need* a man” or say how Im “insecure” but that’s not it. Why can’t I just want to love and be loved back? It makes me so sad looking at these happy couples (and yes, you never know what happens behind closed doors) but there are people that are genuinely happy together. There are women that get treated like queens and men like kings and WHY CANT THAT HAPPEN FOR ME?

My last relationship lasted 2 years. I did everything for him and he just tossed me away like nothing. I broke it off but he left me emotionally a long time ago. Just where is the person I’m supposed to spend the rest of my life with and can they hurry up already...?