Help!!!😭

My boyfriend never texts me or calls me and I have to initiate everything which makes me really upset because that’s not how relationships work, especially when a pandemic is causing us to be pretty much long-distance. I’ve approached him about it multiple times and he keeps saying he feels annoying and boring and that he’s going to mess everything up and I’m trying to convince him that he’s not and he refuses to open up. I’ve been there myself but I still don’t know how to make him feel better. It’s been a year since we met and we’re practically strangers, and I feel like he doesn’t care and I keep trying and he keeps disappearing and it’s so frustrating. I want to cry and get mad but he hasn’t done anything, even though him not doing anything is the problem! I want to break up with him but I want to stay in case it gets better and I don’t know what to do. It’s so emotionally draining, but I feel so happy during that (maybe) ten minutes a week that we talk. I just want to feel happy, with or without him.