looking 4 love (in all the wrong places?)

so i’m 20 years old and i know that’s young but ive never really had a relationship. i had one 6 month relationship in high school with a guy that treated me really badly and one 3 month relationship in high school with a guy i really liked. but no long lasting relationship.

i love love and i don’t have many friends so i was sure when i got to college i’d find a boyfriend or girlfriend (i’m bi i think). then i was sent home because of covid. now im back in my college town but not allowed on campus, using Hinge and going on occasional dates but i feel like i can’t and won’t find love. i’m pretty bold- i ask out guys in my classes and in coffee shops because i figure what’s the damage if they say no, which they do- always. don’t get me wrong i get a lot of attention on hinge that i ignore too. ive been really confident the past year but im starting to wonder if i should go back to thinking im ugly, like maybe my confidence is undeserved

should i stop being forward? ive been issuing dating apps less and less and not looking for love bc i know it comes when you don’t look for it but it’s so hard to actually become involved w things because of covid.

oh here’s me