What's wrong with me????

The pain of the lost of a baby can be understood for those who have gone through the same situation. I just can't really understand why? I wish would be a word, just one word to describe that pain that gets stuck in the deepest of my heart. At 6 weeks only this time and 5 weeks last year. What's wrong with me?? My first pregnancy was so enjoyable, so exciting, all wonderful, no sickness at all, why can't achieve again??

I think I'm done. I'm terrified to try again.