I’m Just So Sad

It feels so unreal. We were just getting ready to tell people about the baby. Our little miracle after having a miscarriage earlier in the year. And then the spotting started again... and I went for an ultrasound and just kept chanting it’s going to be okay, everything is okay... and then the tech told me there wasn’t a heartbeat.

Just a few weeks along, but I’m devastated. How am I supposed to keep moving forward when I feel so empty inside? Am I ever going to be able to carry another child to term? Will my son grow up an only child? Shouldn’t I be grateful that I have one healthy kid? I just am so so sad. It’s so unfair. So unfair.