Trying not to break down

I had a mc in August. My depression has been really bad BUT life goes on right ? Life as a home health aide & a 3 year old you cant just STOP to grieve. I guess ive just been NUMB to say the least so i wouldnt completely break down !! Wellllllll today i had to bring my client to ER for diabetic attack. Little did i know he was going to the SAME hospital, & Would be in the SAME room With the SAME nurse ! Im Trying not to completely lose it & mentally break down ! Im so sad right now & cant wait for my shift to be over so i can stop pretending to be strong & run for the fucking hills & cry my eyes out & eat my sorrow away 😢 how do people deal with certain places, people, things reminding them of that horrible time ! Ive thrown away my maternity clothes, we moved into a new house (not by choice was just really convenient time & opportunity) & i avoid this hospital like the plague but for work dont really have that option !! Im really trying to shake this but i cant !! Doesnt help the nurse remembers me & keeps asking how i've been