It’s been 5 months and I’m still not over him.

I’ve been keeping busy since my breakup. I spend time with our son. I go out with friends, and I got a new job, but I’m not satisfied with the breakup. My ex wasn’t the greatest to me. 3 years and he was toxic towards me. He was the one who broke up with me and then begged for me back but I know I didn’t deserve to be treated the way he treated me. I just don’t get why I miss someone who treated me like complete shit. I think I just feel really lonely because now I just don’t have the comfort he would give me on our good days. I just feel kind of sad alone.