Postpartum depression

My son is 5 days old and ever since his arrival, things have not been as I expected. I don’t feel joy. I cry constantly. I want to be super mom but I can’t. The house is a mess, the fact that I took a shower this morning is a miracle. My body is recovering from childbirth (I pushed for nearly 4 hours with no epidural and had to get stitches and also had a hemorrhoid.) I feel like I can hardly move around and yet somehow I’m barely getting by. Every ounce of strength I have, goes to taking care of my baby.

Does anyone else struggle like this? Postpartum is so so hard.