Am I being crazy?

My husband has been working so much lately that I’ve hardly seen him. We have a four year old autistic daughter and one on the way in January.

I know that new babies cause stress on a man, but Jeez. He’s hardly had any days off this entire month. He works night shift, so he’s asleep during the day and will be up for about an hour and then he heads to work.

My daughter has developed anxiety throughout this time and the only pattern that I know has changed is his work schedule.

On top of it all, with the exception of taking my daughter to therapy, I no longer have a social life due to COVID. I have no one to talk to or to go see. Our church is still closed. Family is over an hour away. I order groceries online because going to the grocery store is impossible with my daughter. I have no babysitter for her at all so she’s on me all the time. I get little to no time to myself.

I feel like I’m borderline psychotic at this point and keep hearing stuff that isn’t there. I feel detached from myself in a way. I have crying episodes where I can’t stop crying. I feel so hopeless. I try telling my husband how I feel, but I feel like he thinks that I’m acting out just for attention. He also signed up to work Thanksgiving and pretended like it was an accident (he gets no extra pay for holidays, btw). He scheduled to work Christmas already. So hooray, I get to spend the holidays alone, too.

He claims that he’s not stressed at all but that he has to work overtime. I don’t believe that at all.

Maybe I am just a horrible person to be around. Idk.

I’m 27 weeks with my 2nd baby girl.

Does all this seem legit? Or am I being crazy?