Gender disappointment is such a real and raw emotion that just eats at you. I am so blessed to have this little baby growing inside of me and I am so excited to meet my 3rd baby boy but my heart is breaking on the fact ill never get to meet my baby girl. The one who's name I had picked out since high school, the one I want to see go to father daughter dance and get a father/daughter relationship I never had because I grew up with a father. My heart hurts for the daughter I'll never met. I found out of Thursday what I am having and my friends want to do a gender reveal party but I don't want to. It feels like the last hope I have of having a daughter will slip away when we officially announce #3 is a boy. I love being a boy mom you're so protected and love. The house is always so happy and fun full of adventures and super heros I can't wait to see if hes a mix of his brother or if he favors one more than the other but for now my heart hurts.