Gender disappointment....

Jessica • 02/20/21💕Hazel👶🏻

I found out the gender of my baby through an ultrasound and I was told to call my family doctor a couple days later to find out the gender because the person doing the ultrasound isn’t allowed to tell you at the hospital I go to. And when I called I was told I was having a girl. I was over the moon excited because I had really wanted a girl, I feel like at the time I would have been happy for a boy too but who knows. And today when I was at my obgyn I was referring to my baby as ‘she’ and when she realized she asked me if I was told it was a girl and then she looked at her file on her computer and she said I was actually having a boy. While I was there I tried to act as if I was still happy about it and everything but once I got out to the car I almost started crying. I don’t know if it’s because I was initially told it was a girl so I had it drilled in my head it was a girl or if I’m just genuinely disappointed about having a boy. And I honestly feel like crap that I feel this way. And like lately I’ve been kinda depressed and idk if that’s having an effect on my reaction to this too or what.

Does anyone have any tips for dealing with gender disappointment?