2020 is a beast

Ready. Set. Go.

My husband and I have been trying to conceive for about 4 years, we’ve been together 12. Two years ago (Christmas Day no less) I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks. Post that, we tried everything short of IVF. I honestly didn’t stress and chalked it up to, we wouldn’t be parents. Fast forward to now- two months ago I discovered my husband had a two week “emotional” affair with a woman while I was out of town. This was uncharacteristic of him to the millionth degree. We’re in therapy which has been amazing. But bc of the stress, I lost 10lbs 125 to 115, was on TWO anti anxiety meds and drank a lot. During this time my cycle was all messed up, I had an additional period brought on my stress. We obv had sex and now, through all of this, am pregnant. I’m only 5 weeks so who knows if it’ll stick but that’s not the hardest part- the hardest is bc of my emotional freak out I told people closest to us, including people on his and my side of the family. Now we’re freaking out how the F are we going to tell people, I’m judging myself 🤦🏻‍♀️ trust me. But wtf, four years and nothing, all this stress and a baby?!