Gender disappointment, but not...

To all of you going through this... When I found out that it's a boy, I cried. I was pretty much sure it's a girl. I could imagine her. And then... felt like I lost her. I still had some hope that maybe the doctor was wrong. But on every ultrasound it was confirmed - it's a boy.

I was sad. And angry. And confused. I wanted my girl. It took me more than a month to face it.

I tried buying some baby boy stuff. But it just made me feel angry. And then I decided to do nothing.

And then, I was scared, will I love him? And felt guilty because I lost the connection with my baby once I found out the gender.

Months passed by. Somehow, that major disappointment flew off. I wasn't disappointed anymore. But wasn't excited either.

And when that little boy came to this world, I cried.

I cried because he was perfect. He was tiny, helpless, so small... I fell in love immediately. And blame myself for all those feelings I've had before I met him.

All of you mammas going through this- I know exactly how you feel. When someone would've told me that the disappointment shall pass I was angry. Now I know they were right.

It's ok to feel disappointed. But once you see that tiny little version of you, you'll forget everything. And you will love your baby to the moon and back...