Am i making the right decision?

Hey everyone, i lost my baby at 8 weeks through an ectopic pregnancy in january when i was 19 and needed emergency surgery. This baby wasn’t planned and my partner and i definitely weren’t ready but we were going to be ready and this lost has effected me so hard. We plan to try again in about 4 years and i’m currently on the copper iud. I’ve decided to go back on my antidepressants because my baby fever is through the roof, and knowing that i cant even try to conceive again until a few more years is literally eating me alive. I don’t have a support system anymore so talking about this is really hard. Am i making the right decision?