Is it normal not to get over your first love?

So when I met my first love I was in love him him, but he wasn’t in love with me. We had a friends with benefits relationship for about a year or so until he met his girlfriend (now ex girl). I was because I was so in love with him and thought about him often. When he broke up with his girl we started talking again (as friends, no benefits) again. I was about 21 when we started talking again and I was in a relationship with someone who is now my hubby ❤️. I hate to admit this, but when we started talking and hanging out as friends again all of those feelings came rushing back, but like I said I was in a relationship so nothing went past just talking. My husband was also aware that we used to be friends with benefits and was always there when we hung out. We always hung out a mutual friends houses. I was very transparent with him I just didn’t go into detail about how much I loved him. I’ve actually never even told my first love how much I feel for him because he was always so wishy washy with our relationship in the past. I swear to you though I really think he does or did have feelings for me, he’s just never expressed them to me and vice versa. When we were together it’s like nothing else mattered. We could talk for hours and hours.

Anyways throughout the years we hung out and I just couldn’t shake the feelings I have for him. Was it just because he was my first love?

Fast forward to know, I’m 28 and we talk every now and then and see each other occasionally at mutual friends events. I feel like now my feelings for him have somewhat diminished because of how he’s treated me in the past. Even though when I do see him I do still kind of get weak in the knees. I really don’t know what I’m trying to get out of this post. I guess I’m just trying to see if anyone has had a similar situation.

For the record m, I absolutely adore my husband. He has always been there for me through thick and thin and is literally the best husband. He does everything he can to go out of his was to make me happy. I would never do anything to jeopardize our relationship and will always put him first. Technically he was my first love that loved me back. 😁😁