5 months wasted

I gave my everything to someone for 5 months, just to get my heartbroken. Just for him to leave like I was nothing to him in the first place. I moved in with him cause he hated being at home, and for the whole month we lived together I was so damn depressed, I cried every single day, had an anxiety attack every single day, Hated myself, and did everything in my power to make him happy for nothing. We fought everyday, he was very verbally abusive and I stayed for a month, it hurts so bad and I keep telling myself and my family keeps telling me “It’s gonna be okay” “You’re gonna be happier” and right now it is so damn hard to believe any of it. The first would’ve been our 6 months. I’m so mad at myself for all of it, there’s so much pain and anger in me and I just want it gone.. This fucking sucks. Anyways I just really needed to vent..