Ladies I'm at my wits end with TTC. I just want to give up completely and get back on birth control. January we will be off BC for 2 years. I got pregnant this past January and miscarried at 11 weeks. I got really sick and a bad infection from the miscarriage.

We got pregnant again in October, so we thought but it was considered a chemical. And here I am crying again because all my normal period symptoms are here and I just feel like I can't keep going through this same devastating cycle again and again. I'm miserable and I know i make things harder on my husband. I've lost 50 pounds since August hoping a healthier weight and lifestyle would help, but here we are again. All testing for myself has come out perfectly fine. My husband did an at home sperm test which said his numbers were fine and we are in line for a urologist.

But again I just feel so hopeless during all this. Thanks if you've read it all. I just needed somewhere to say all the things I'm feeling.