Stuck

I’ve been in a relationship for over 8 years he talks about marriage but never really does anything about it. This year really has shown me that I might of made a wrong decision in staying with him. We are struggling financially, intimately and I have trust issues that I cannot let go of. I’m close to 30 with nothing to show and I honestly I feel like I’m wasting away trying to make things work with him. I’m so frustrated it’s always the same issues and I’m always the one to bring them up because he’s in la la land acting like everything is perfectly fine. I feel like I know what to do but also I’m terrified, he’s the only man I’ve been in a serious relationship with. I’m seriously so drained I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom and I’m stuck here. It sounds so depressing but it’s how I feel. Thanks for reading.