Help!!!

Dejah • 💜25💜Mom of two amazing little boys💜
I'm 24
Married 
Mom of two beautiful kids 
The only thing is I'm bi... My husband knows but no one else in my or his family knows not even my friends. He accepts it and loves me regardless but he's really not open to it. I feel guilty for feeling the way I do but I can't help it. He was my first actual boyfriend and we've been together ever since so I never really got a chance to explore that side of me. Don't get me wrong I love him to pieces but I really wanna "experiment" am I wrong???