Eating

Okay... this is it usually something I talk about but, I am struggling with eating. It is December and I’ve had very intrusive thoughts about eating since May. I used to work out every day multiple times of day, worrying I wasn’t getting the body I wanted. I fell out of that habit but the starving myself is still an issue. Eating is extremely difficult for me. I have a new anxiety of eating in front of people. I turned down the opportunity to eat in front of my boyfriends family because it made me so nervous. I have made myself throw up many times and I skip meals frequently. Every-time I eat it’s a new guilt. And a new persuasion to workout. I really don’t know who to talk to about this. I want to tell my parents but I have no idea how. I’m 16 years old and I weigh 99 pounds which isn’t bad but it’s about 15 pounds less than what I used to weigh. I’m just hoping for some advice and I’m still not sure if I have an eating disorder. Thank you❤️❤️