The hardest thing I’ve ever done

To all the mothers out there- I need some support.

At 14 I was raped by a man I didn’t know. I never even saw his face. I ended up getting pregnant and while I knew that I couldn’t support the baby, I wasn’t strong enough to get an abortion.

I gave birth 3 months ago to my gorgeous baby girl, Aviana Louise. I’m only 15, I don’t have the resources or the family backing to support a child, so I knew I couldn’t keep her.

My two brothers and I were both in foster care so it absolutely broke my heart to put her in the system...

I’ve been in contact so far with her foster parents, a great gay couple, but I haven’t been able to see her in a long time.

They’re thinking of adopting her and I’m grateful.

I don’t know you guys. I miss my baby so much. I don’t think I’ve stopped crying once, even though I know she’s in a good, healthy environment. I just got so attached all throughout the pregnancy, and giving birth was the hardest thing that’s ever happened to me. 17 hours in labor before they decided it would be safest to perform a cesarean section.

I just don’t know what to do. I’m hurting really bad.

Sorry if this was all over the place