Nothing like feeling down in the dump..

I just spoke to my gynecologist. My last period was Nov 28th. Was due Dec 26th according to Glow. I took a test on the 27th, came back negative. Then I took another January 2nd, negative (not first morning urine). As of today, I feel nauseous and threw up a little in the morning. My stomach also feels a bit strange, between achy and hungry. I have no other symptoms.

She explained that I could of possibly had anovulation. I did ask her if I had my last period Nov 28th and still haven't gotten one yet, is it just possible I could of ovulated later and tested too soon. She said that is very possible. She said I am currently CD39 and she wants me to wait until CD45, which is January 11th. If no AF yet, then take a test. If negative, she said she would put me on Provera to start my period and then I can take my birth control. I was planning on taking my birth control again when I had gotten my period on the 26th, but that changed. It would take up to two weeks for my period to start after Provera is what she told me. Then the birth control can start to regulate my periods since I also had a very late period back in Sept, 41 day cycle. If I do not get anything come the 45th day, I just hope the test says positive because I dont want to feel broken in a sense. I dont want to have to take things to regulate anything. I just want my body to naturally do these things on its own. Kind of feel really down in the dumps. It feels as if my child bearing years are slowly decreasing and that is truly heartbreaking.