Depressed while being pregnant

Hey ladies! I’m kinda embarrassed to post this so I decided to post anonymously. So backstory is, I was diagnosed with severe depression/anxiety about 2 years ago. (Even though I felt like I’ve battled with depression for about 5 years before that). Anyways, I ended up having a mental breakdown 2 months before I knew I was pregnant, my doctor increased my meds and I started to feel a little better. Then I found out I was pregnant and quit taking all of my meds. Now, I am having trouble finding joy in my pregnancy and I’m worrying more! I can’t “bond” with my unborn child and if you ladies knew me you would know I LOVE kids (I have a 3 yo). I’m finding it really hard to feel happy about my pregnancy journey and I’m slowly going back into that dark mental state I fought so hard to get out of.. any advice would be greatly appreciated as I’m so worried about what’s to come..