Ugh 🤦🏼‍♀️ chemical pregnancy this month... so heartbreaking ☹️

Hi all! I’m 33, a stepmom to two with one baby lost at 21 weeks about a decade ago. TTC my rainbow baby, now and I’ve been logging my bbt, & peeing on the right sticks like a boss.... totally taking full advantage of baby dance days every time I’m supposed to... So about 3 days before I should’ve had a period I was SO excited to start to feel horribly queasy and have a heightened sense of smell, because I remember I was SO pukey sick immediately-like within DAYS of implantation-with my last pregnancy. (Which is the one I tragically lost at 21 weeks... 😔) But then I got a period that’s so sudden, god awful, and gory about 5 days after I should have. Just really sad and deflated right now... My partner has a few legitimate concerns about his motility

, or I wouldn’t be as upset. I just am praying that I have what it takes to see this thing through. It’s agonizing to go through the WAITING then DOING what you have to then have to WAIT again. I dunno how people do this for months and months on end. 🥺