Super sick🤢

I’m 9 weeks pregnant and girl have I been sick ash !! Since the very beginning and of this pregnancy I been super nauseous.. even came close to vomiting but never did until this morning . This baby will literally let me eat small every 2 days and then I’m good that whole day but for another 2 days I’m sick and can’t seem to hold nothing down ! I be so hungry 🥲 my son is 3 months and the beginning of my pregnancy I was barely sick I threw up one time with him but I was on a bus home to New York for 15 hours . He let me eat whatever by 9 weeks I had gained so much weight with my son .. but this time I’m losing weight 🤨 I feel no connection to this baby for some reason I didn’t really wanna be pregnant again so soon and my first trimester so far has been 🤮 . Just ready for my first appointment with my midwife for this baby 💕