Missed miscarriage

I was so happy when I saw the +. Over the moon. Every thing was fine up until this Thursday when we discovered that my little angel was too beautiful for this Earth and his heart stopped beating. I was heartbroken, still am. I'm writing this just to get it out of me, because its really killing me to keep it all inside. I'm currently lying in the hospital where we started the process of removing the baby and everything via 6 pills, because I wanted the "easier" way. I'm in pain, so so much pain, physically and mentally. I signed the papers that my little sweetheart can be burried with other little angels, but I don't have the power or heart to see him once he's out of me. It hurts too much. I don't wanna accept this at all, but I know I have no choice. I just hope the pain gets easier each day because I want to heal myself as quickly as possible to be able to have my rainbow. This baby will always live with me in my heart, but I need to be able to move on and give him a little brother/sister that he can watch from heaven. So here's to my little angel baby, mommy will always love you ♥️♥️