So I been out of work for about 7-8 months due to covid reasons and I been at home with my 10 month baby girl and I’m honestly losing my mind because idk if I’m doing good as a new mom I already struggle with my anxiety and my own depression but I feel as me being new mom I took on new depression and I hate that I can’t control it and I feel drained 24/7 and trying to have self love is definitely not there I feel like I’ve lost myself and I have no clue how to get back to myself most of the time I’m home alone my subconscious is all over the place bc I feel like I’m doing shitty job or not doing enough to support my child now I will say I do have bf that takes care of financially and he’s doing the best he can over the last couple of months our life really has been hard on us like I want to go back to work sooooo bad but finding a babysitter is out of the question due to covid and money we lost our car In October then unemployment ran out in November the due to covid my bf checks are cut in half and now my apartment is infested like honestly I’m scared for what’s next bc I haven’t had good feel in awhile I just feel as if life and turned the other cheek

I’m really just looking for some advice so please tell me how deal with all of this?