I have never felt anything like how I feel about this guy. I’ve never kissed someone before and it not be about sex. Like people kiss and they get all hot and heavy and yeah it leads to sex sometimes, and sometimes we just kiss and everything comes so natural and every single touch feels so amazing. It feels like being set on fire in the best way, every nerve ending is alive and aware like our chemistry is wild. And oh my god he has the softest lips. It is addictive.

I almost said it out loud to him last night and I told him that I almost said it out loud. Felt comfortable saying it. We had already discussed the topic beforehand so I just told him that I almost said it 🤷‍♀️ He said “I won’t tell you I love you until it’s the right moment. But it doesn’t mean I don’t. Love is the one thing I was deprived of my entire life and people throw around ‘I love you’ like it’s nothing. I’m waiting for the right moment because it is an extremely big deal to me. When I say that to you, its going to be special.” And I was all nervous and stupid and said “it doesn’t mean you don’t?” And he looked at me and smiled and said “oh don’t act like you don’t know. You know.”

This dude has me over here fantasizing about how he’s going to tell me he loves me. He also said it’s going to be when Im not thinking about it. I think he’s going to take me on a date and make it that sort of thing. I’m over here like he’s going to make that moment really special and I don’t even know what I’m going to do when it happens. I’ll say it back, I’m dying to say it. But like HOW DO I ACT. He’s going to say it and I’m gonna be like 🥺 and internally screaming. I might scream out loud.