Possible Baby #2 NOT READY

So I was having problems with my IUD and got it removed on my child’s first birthday (dec. 30th). My dr recommended I give my body a hormone break because I don’t respond well to extra hormones.

I told my husband we need to be having protected sex while I’m unprotected because we can’t have another child right now but he’s super anti-condom *eye-roll*. So we have been pulling out. I’m supposed to start my period in 2 days but I lightly cramped last week and had just the tiniest bit of brown blood. Almost exactly what happened last time I was pregnant. I have a lot of anxiety and we’re so not in a position to have another child. I’m only 20! I guess I’m just venting because I’m nervous and I’m too scared to talk to anyone I know about it.