Opinions please

So me and my husband have two kids. Two wonderful boys. 7 and 5. We have always talked about having a girl. My husband wants to try this year to have one (currently not trying cuz it’s too close to birthdays on when the baby would be born. So waiting a few months.) I was extremely excited to try one more time. However I’m getting less excited. I’m finally getting back to a body image I’m ok with. I’m also going to be starting school again. It kinda seems like things are finally turning around now. And if we wait another year to have another one the boys will be 9 and 7 and I think that’s too far apart in age. I hate the idea of not having another kid but I’m not sure I really want another one now. Thoughts would be greatly appreciated. 🤔