I’m 23 and am pregnant with my second child, I live a good life with my husband. But growing up and even now I feel so lonely and often angry at the situation with my parents and sort of still grieving the parents I wish I had.

My mom was diagnosed with split personality disorder, she has no emotion for others or sympathy. Her fiancé died in bed next to her and it was a normal day for her (everyone in town thought she did it). I got taken from her by CPS. I begged her to tell me she loves me and she just rants about money and random things. She lives states away and I don’t hear from her often - when I see her it’s always an anxious rushed thing.

My Dad has bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder and depression (I also have all 3 of these). He couldn’t take care of me when I was young so I lived with my Grandmother. Growing up it was just always him being depressed and me as a child worrying about him and if he was going to off himself. Even to this day he is very centered on his own problems and tells me he has it worse because of things hes been through.

Maybe it’s pregnancy hormones but I am just so angry at both of them even though i know it’s not their fault. I am just upset and sad and my friends who have “normal” parent relationships it makes me jealous and feel very isolated. Any advice?