Hi everyone! Thanks for reading my post.

I (F21) broke up with my ex boyfriend in July 2020 and it was also the same day I had to move in to my new apartment. It was painful to move all my stuff in without him then but I saw it as a new start.

Honestly? I coped with my pain by hooking up with different guys literally every couple of weeks (safely, with condoms don’t worry). Then couple months of doing this later, I stopped because it was no longer giving me the benefit I was getting then. Felt like shit for a while, but I was fine!

Fast forward end of January 2021, I met a guy on Instagram and we set up a date a week later. I wanted to cancel but it was really just me being nervous- I’ve never had a guy pick me up and bring me on a date. I wasn’t sure how to act because I usually sleep with guys first before going on a date with them, haha yikes.

He was great, we have a lot in common and he’s a gentleman. He’s been taking me out since and yes, we’ve slept together and he’s amazing. I’ve never had a guy (tmi) determined to make me orgasm during sex - as I have not been able to accomplish that ever.

My friends would ask me: “do you like him?” And I just get a feeling and also thoughts inside me saying: “if you like this guy, you’ll get hurt again and then it’ll just make you regret everything.” I keep hearing this same thought every time someone asks me how I feel about him. I enjoy his company and he’s a good friend/listener. I feel like I’m blocking myself from feeling something for him or for anyone and I’m not sure if this is normal or whatnot.

Please let me know your thoughts.