Okay so let me give you a little bit of a back story on me, I grew up in a Christian home and my mother could be quite strict,

I didn't start dating till I was 22 and lost my virginity to my now fiance, I am now 27 years old and we've been together 5 years we are in a long distance relationship but we're only an hour and a half away from each other and we see each other at least once a week, up until May when my mom passed away I have been taking care of her because she had really bad health problems and needed help 24/7, I've always wanted children but the last two years I really wanted one, now in the beginning of my relationship with my fiance who has two children from a previous relationship, I told him I wanted a child and he had told me that he really didn't want another one but once we were married he would have one for me because I wanted one and he wanted to do things right this time, now since my mom passed and I feel like I can finally have a kid if I want to, I have baby fever stronger than ever, I have been off birth control for 6 months now and no baby yet, he has said in the past that he wanted to wait until we got married to have a child but we haven't set a date and honestly I don't care when we get married I know I want to be with him for the rest of my life, he also feels the same way, I've been kind of pulled the last couple weeks it hasn't happened yet and I left it up to God if he want me to get pregnant or not, I see all these people having babies including my best friend and it makes me really really want one yes I know it take a lot of time energy patience and money but I feel ready then ever, but the last few weeks im questioning if I really want one right now or not or if I should wait, and it's basically all I can focus on, I'm confused on weather I should get back on birth control or not. What do u think???